I don’t have time to be the girl’s girl, I don’t have time to be the boy’s girl, I just have time to be me. Sometimes, I look at some pictures of my “friends” out having fun, and for a second I wish I could be there, to share, to listen, to be present in their lives more. But, then I realize that as it stands now, I can’t spare any energy on anyone else, as much as I would love to. I can’t force it. And those who understand are always there when I want to reach out.
I guess, it’s just a period of my life were it just has to be about work, because later on, it will get easier. I just know it.
I guess, what I’m trying to say is that I feel bad for alienating people, but I can’t help it right now. I would say I rather alienate myself from other people, becoming a hermit. And it’s okay. It’s winter time anyway.
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